Writing and Praying After PTSD and Treatment
PTSD Treatment in my life has been completed for several years. Since many major life issues have taken place since and I am still relatively stable, I can know that the treatment I had for C-PTSD was successful. Throughout treat, I relied heavily on writing and praying.
I realize when I look at my two blogs that deal with my past (one is more secret than the other) that I haven’t been keeping up with writing post. But it should not be surprising because I have stopped going to weekly counseling almost 5 years ago and I am trying to figure out what my purpose in life is. What does God want me to do with my life? How am I to live this part forward?
I know many people just get a job so that they can pay their bills and enjoy the weekends. Of course, this is important and valid as a reason for working. We are created to work, to be productive, to fulfill a purpose and to then have relationships that are meaningful. I want to love my job and the people I work with.
He helped me to endure the decade of healing, beyond the agony of two decades of abuse and year after of dealing with the intense trauma triggers. I think it is natural for someone who has been through what I have and to have come out basically healthy to want to reach back to guide others out of the child abuse experience. So, why don’t I become a counselor? And that is a very good question and something I am seriously thinking about.
But more than a counselor, I want to be a person who walks along side others, that encourages others, and that speaks out the hope that there is a way to healthy living. Still, this may take me being a counselor to get involved in organizations that do this kind of work. I have looked at several and most of the jobs require degrees in counseling, social work, or project managing (the business side of the organization). I know I can handle the coursework. I have a 3.80 GPA from college. I already have a degree in Early Childhood Education. (And I have tried teaching in public schools and it just is not for me.)
However, I do believe every child deserve a safe and happy environment to learn and play in. And I love to see children happy, discovering and exploring. Even looking at children in pictures such as the one below makes me smile.
So I am still looking at avenues that I can work with children and families possibly in a private school environment or a preschool one. I guess it is a place to start, a place to establish a stable work history. And really this would be a major accomplishment, since I have been a volunteer and homeschool mom for the majority of the past 25 years.
I am also writing but I am not sure if it will ever get published. It is very hard to be a writer, that gets a book published.
So if you read this pray for me. I hope to write back soon. For me, writing and praying go hand-in-hand. It is still the continuing treatment I use in life (even while not seeing a therapist weekly) to help myself explore my present condition and to listen for my next step.
Photocredit: (orig01.deviantart plainfield summer camp (klaschoolsil), camelotkids orig14.deviantart.)
I realize when I look at my two blogs that deal with my past (one is more secret than the other) that I haven’t been keeping up with writing post. But it should not be surprising because I have stopped going to weekly counseling almost 5 years ago and I am trying to figure out what my purpose in life is. What does God want me to do with my life? How am I to live this part forward?
I know many people just get a job so that they can pay their bills and enjoy the weekends. Of course, this is important and valid as a reason for working. We are created to work, to be productive, to fulfill a purpose and to then have relationships that are meaningful. I want to love my job and the people I work with.
I just keep feeling that God did not have me experience all I went through as a child for no earthly purpose.
He helped me to endure the decade of healing, beyond the agony of two decades of abuse and year after of dealing with the intense trauma triggers. I think it is natural for someone who has been through what I have and to have come out basically healthy to want to reach back to guide others out of the child abuse experience. So, why don’t I become a counselor? And that is a very good question and something I am seriously thinking about.
But more than a counselor, I want to be a person who walks along side others, that encourages others, and that speaks out the hope that there is a way to healthy living. Still, this may take me being a counselor to get involved in organizations that do this kind of work. I have looked at several and most of the jobs require degrees in counseling, social work, or project managing (the business side of the organization). I know I can handle the coursework. I have a 3.80 GPA from college. I already have a degree in Early Childhood Education. (And I have tried teaching in public schools and it just is not for me.)
However, I do believe every child deserve a safe and happy environment to learn and play in. And I love to see children happy, discovering and exploring. Even looking at children in pictures such as the one below makes me smile.
So I am still looking at avenues that I can work with children and families possibly in a private school environment or a preschool one. I guess it is a place to start, a place to establish a stable work history. And really this would be a major accomplishment, since I have been a volunteer and homeschool mom for the majority of the past 25 years.
I am also writing but I am not sure if it will ever get published. It is very hard to be a writer, that gets a book published.
So if you read this pray for me. I hope to write back soon. For me, writing and praying go hand-in-hand. It is still the continuing treatment I use in life (even while not seeing a therapist weekly) to help myself explore my present condition and to listen for my next step.
Photocredit: (orig01.deviantart plainfield summer camp (klaschoolsil), camelotkids orig14.deviantart.)
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