Sense of Self - Choose to Live Positively
Within every soul a yearning to know self is natural.
Often self awareness is more acutely discerned when a disintegration sense of self is experienced. Most people merrily bob along in life or keep themselves busy with activity and noise.
These are distrations that keep us from ever going deeper and frankly a lot of life is wasted as one drifts through days, months, years. If you are aware that you are coming apart and are not stable, you are more closely connected to self awareness than those so disintegrated that they can't even recognize they need help.
I know this doesn't make you feel great about where you are finding yourself today. There exists a wide range of having disintegrated sense of self.... some days we feel more solidly "ourself" and other days we feel trapped.
All I know to do and to persevere.... as I seek God.
From God I began and to Him I return.
My whole life is due to Him, so I might as well learn how to live... life... as He wants me to live.
And that has been my journey the last 30 or so years. Living, Learning, Loving... and a whole lot of messing up along the way.
What is the key? What is the hope? How might a disintegrated self become integrated into one whole soul. The real me I was by design created to be before ... well, you know.. just before.
I long to start again... it is suppose to be a re-birth of the spirit... is it possible to have the same kind of instant re-birth of the soul. And that is the whole purpose of the journey...
Learning to see the sunrise through the eyes of God. To face the new day with hope knowing each day is full of choices... There are some things in life I can do nothing about... never could.. never will...
BUT what I need to look for is what can I choose to do? What are my possible decisions I can make to make my life shine for people to see God. (It can be hard when you still so want people to see you... honesty... to the core it is me.)
Still... I chose to make the best choices in the midst of my circumstances in the midst of what I have no control over, and that... for me... is enough.
To make me smile at life and myself! Here I go. I choose to live positively!
Often self awareness is more acutely discerned when a disintegration sense of self is experienced. Most people merrily bob along in life or keep themselves busy with activity and noise.
These are distrations that keep us from ever going deeper and frankly a lot of life is wasted as one drifts through days, months, years. If you are aware that you are coming apart and are not stable, you are more closely connected to self awareness than those so disintegrated that they can't even recognize they need help.
I know this doesn't make you feel great about where you are finding yourself today. There exists a wide range of having disintegrated sense of self.... some days we feel more solidly "ourself" and other days we feel trapped.
All I know to do and to persevere.... as I seek God.
From God I began and to Him I return.
My whole life is due to Him, so I might as well learn how to live... life... as He wants me to live.
And that has been my journey the last 30 or so years. Living, Learning, Loving... and a whole lot of messing up along the way.
What is the key? What is the hope? How might a disintegrated self become integrated into one whole soul. The real me I was by design created to be before ... well, you know.. just before.
I long to start again... it is suppose to be a re-birth of the spirit... is it possible to have the same kind of instant re-birth of the soul. And that is the whole purpose of the journey...
Learning to see the sunrise through the eyes of God. To face the new day with hope knowing each day is full of choices... There are some things in life I can do nothing about... never could.. never will...
BUT what I need to look for is what can I choose to do? What are my possible decisions I can make to make my life shine for people to see God. (It can be hard when you still so want people to see you... honesty... to the core it is me.)
Still... I chose to make the best choices in the midst of my circumstances in the midst of what I have no control over, and that... for me... is enough.
To make me smile at life and myself! Here I go. I choose to live positively!
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