She is Me!
Do you ever see yourself in other's work? I open up a website page and feel like I am at home - it is everything I would make for my website page, but it is already done and someone else owns it. Or I see a picture, a journal page, an idea completed and think I feel that - I could have done that - or more closely, that is what I would have created to express how I feel if I actually drew or did something.
I am not a young girl anymore. I am older than a lot of the young ladies running ahead of me in ministry and I get a sense that I am left behind, that God is blowing the wind beneath their wing and they are soaring with Him, but I am grounded. My inner spirit soars so easily, but physically nothing takes off.
Working with my dear husband this weekend taught me something powerful about myself. I need other people!
It is not a replacement for God - He is my everything. I breath because He exists! I live because He breathes life into me. He doesn't have first place in my life - He is MY LIFE!
And now God is showing me how "other people" fit into my world.
I need people!
Yes, that is vulnerable to say.
I learned early in life... real early... even before I could verbalize ... I learned people hurt and to not trust people and no one is safe and no place is safe. Have you ever been there?
After the big part of healing is over, God is constantly teaching me new lessons. (I have questioned if we ever can finish healing.)
God brought me to a point that my intense therapy was over. I wrote about it here. But still, no one is ever "finished" until God calls us home - in church-ese it is called sanctification.
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My experience working with my husband to clean the floor in my bedroom showed me how and why I need help from others. I literally can not start on my own. I need others to walk with me on these steps of the journey.
I don't understand all things - ha - of course I never will. Though, I do sense I need others to join with me to accomplish the work that God wants to be done. And really doesn't that sound so God-like--that He would not let me squirrel away and do my own thing... but He wants me to do His thing He has passionately birthed in my heart with others.
I don't know where this is going... but I do know, I will follow Him where He takes me.
Maybe you will bump into me along the way... maybe our paths will cross ... or maybe we will just look at and appreciate what God is doing in each other's lives. We have friendships on all different kinds of levels. I think God is trying to help me move to a new level with some people in my life. It is scary!
God is showing me how others are doing ministry so that I can accept that it is possible that He can do ministry through me. Oh, me of little faith!
I am not a young girl anymore. I am older than a lot of the young ladies running ahead of me in ministry and I get a sense that I am left behind, that God is blowing the wind beneath their wing and they are soaring with Him, but I am grounded. My inner spirit soars so easily, but physically nothing takes off.
Working with my dear husband this weekend taught me something powerful about myself. I need other people!
It is not a replacement for God - He is my everything. I breath because He exists! I live because He breathes life into me. He doesn't have first place in my life - He is MY LIFE!
And now God is showing me how "other people" fit into my world.
I need people!
Yes, that is vulnerable to say.
I learned early in life... real early... even before I could verbalize ... I learned people hurt and to not trust people and no one is safe and no place is safe. Have you ever been there?
After the big part of healing is over, God is constantly teaching me new lessons. (I have questioned if we ever can finish healing.)
God brought me to a point that my intense therapy was over. I wrote about it here. But still, no one is ever "finished" until God calls us home - in church-ese it is called sanctification.
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(Rabbit Trail for those Who want to Know More)
The path is three-fold. It goes this way: First, we repent and become God's child (he forgives us, frees us from our sins, and we are literally deemed justified). Second, we are left to live on earth and God continues to work in our life to make us more like Jesus (This is sanctification - being set apart unto God!). And Finally, after we die and go to heaven we experience fully becoming Christ-like (we are glorified!)_______________________________________________________________
My experience working with my husband to clean the floor in my bedroom showed me how and why I need help from others. I literally can not start on my own. I need others to walk with me on these steps of the journey.
I don't understand all things - ha - of course I never will. Though, I do sense I need others to join with me to accomplish the work that God wants to be done. And really doesn't that sound so God-like--that He would not let me squirrel away and do my own thing... but He wants me to do His thing He has passionately birthed in my heart with others.
I don't know where this is going... but I do know, I will follow Him where He takes me.
Maybe you will bump into me along the way... maybe our paths will cross ... or maybe we will just look at and appreciate what God is doing in each other's lives. We have friendships on all different kinds of levels. I think God is trying to help me move to a new level with some people in my life. It is scary!
God is showing me how others are doing ministry so that I can accept that it is possible that He can do ministry through me. Oh, me of little faith!
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