Funny, Light-Hearted and Sun-Shiny

I sometimes wish I could just be funny, light-hearted, sun-shiny when I write but usually God impresses upon my heart messages that won't wash away in a light spring May shower. I am not an Eeyore of Winnie the Pooh, but I walk more with a Jack-in-the-Bean-stalk heavy step, than a Tinker-bell sprinkling magic pixie dust on everyone I come near. Don't we all want to be the little fairy-- at least some of the time?

God moves me to press the words into the keyboard, just like when I look at someone my gaze presses into their soul. Once you have seen the real person, it is hard to just sprinkle a smile and flitter away.

Do I make people laugh? - sometimes. Do I make them cry? - sometimes. Do I make people think? - hopefully. 

As I writer for Him, I say what is poured in until it is poured out. A comedic ministry could be a lot more fun for me and probably for you (if you regularly read what I write). I think I would be loved more or at least avoided less. Don't people want to be encouraged, to have their burden lightened or lifted away. But I was thinking....

Can you imagine being God? What happen the last 12 hours? What did He see? Is it any wonder God doesn't always have laughter in His heart? 

The world is a hurting place, sin brings so much destruction. Who was destroyed, ripped, smashed, or broken last night? God saw it all. We couldn't function if we had! Even if we could have seen into the houses and hearts of the people that live on our street, would not that-alone- break our human soul?

Do you see the pretty person whose world seems to glow? The meticulous house that is in a constant state of upkeep? The freshly polished and waxed car that beads up water to roll away? Is the outside appearance always a true reflection of what is inside?

If we see inside, lives are often webs of twisted lies of sin. Some of the threads are from others and some are our own, but when trying to untangle, to start to live right, to move closer to God, we--at our first impulse-- want to chop it all all off. God doesn't usually want us to do that, because if we do we destroy the good with the bad. 

Let us be patient for Him - because He promises that since He began a good work in our life, He will be faithful to complete it.

What is important is that we always are walking with Him in obedience! He will clean us from the inside out, not the outside in.

And His cleaning is timed perfectly. He knows us better than we know ourselves, and certainly loves us more than we can imagine.

I am going to try to stop carrying so much guilt and let God be God in my life.